Different

This time around my morning sickness is SO different from last time. With Ayden I threw up a few times everyday until about 20 weeks. This time I have the same nauseous feeling all the time, but I can't throw up! It's awful! I feel so incredibly sick to my stomach all day, sometimes sitting by the toilet just praying that I can throw up! I'd almost say it's even worse this way. First of all, I think your body gets a sense of relief for awhile once you do it, and second I don't think my dear husband has any clue how sick I really am! It's easy for him to be more understanding when he sees me puke a few times a day. But when it's me just constantly complaining of a stomach ache all the time with no action :), I feel like he thinks I'm over-reacting or something.

One thing I would like to know is how mom's can change diapers with morning sickness!? Every poopy diaper I change I gag! It is the worst! That, along with grocery shopping. I went to the grocery store the other day and almost threw up in my purse! Going past the all ready cooked chicken's by the deli I wanted to die! And they have this weird olive bar type thing there, I'm not sure what's in there but it STINKS so bad!

I am also exhausted! Another thing my dear husband doesn't seem to understand. Exhaustion has hit me hard this time, and I constantly feel like I am battling to keep my eye's open! I can't get anything done, even thinking of a chore makes me tired! This is really hard because I feel so useless. I feel like I let Brian down every time he get's home from working all night and our house is still a mess.

It sure is different this time, because I have other people who depend on me. It was so nice to be sick last time and just have to worry about myself. Not to have to worry about Ayden, and meals, and cleaning, and running errands. If I was sick last time I would just curl up in bed, take a nap, and tell Brian to heat himself up a hot pocket for dinner :)